Yes, I Have News!

You may have been wondering why I’ve been a wee bit quiet of late. That’s because I’ve been sucking down ginger ale and living in my pajamas. Yes, it’s true—we are expecting! And yes, it’s also true, it was a shock, though not a surprise. We had left that door, as it were, but it’s been SIX YEARS (can I just mention), and I am 45 (which technically qualifies me for a “Whaaaat?” reaction).
I know He is smiling. Especially as we found out the day after we dropped off our oldest to college. And my youngest just started school full-time.
My friends that know have collectively said, “I would be bawling. For days.” But what I have found is that, though I was in shock for a full day (and took two tests!) I have truly felt an underlying peace and joy about it all. When I looked at it from the other side (the one without the panic) I saw how perfect the timing is—I’ve spent the past few years taking good care of my health, strengthening my body, and getting in good shape. And able to finish Faithful, Fit & Fabulous, which has been my opus for helping women and families. Now that it is done and out there, I feel everything else is a bonus.
Ironically, I was researching for the Mother’s Day gift book I’m writing and read a section from Linda J. Eyre’s A Joyful Mother. She and her husband had four children at the time and as they talked about having another all she feels is “numb and black” inside—she’s not ready! They are serving a religious mission in England and she’s like, no way. So they ponder and pray and do all manner of wonderful things to figure it out. And she says she felt immediately a peace and light settling over her, as if He were saying, “It’s alright Linda. This baby is just what you need.”
What is amazing to me, is that I have notated right next to this section in the book a date from two years ago, when I had read that same passage and felt a small, similar (though not so dramatic) feeling that if that was what was best, it was just what we needed. But, having seen nothing afterwards, I do believe I felt that the willingness was enoughJ
A friend and I did laugh at the irony, however—I just signed a contract to write a Mother’s Day gift book. I have just started back to Studio 5 as their “motherhood specialist”. And now I am pregnant. And I am due, of course, in May, which is the month we celebrate motherhood.
Do we see a pattern here?
I’m so grateful I get to immerse myself in the blessings, joy, and downright fun of motherhood. And to share that through these wonderful and surprising opportunities.
So to all the “older” moms out there who are also blessed with cabooses—and I am literally shocked how many there are—my love and prayers for peace and health go to you. Meanwhile, I am enjoying pampering myself completely and feel zero guilt whatsoever for the decidedly relaxed and rejuvenating plans I have for this pregnancy.
On that vein, I do promise to return now to regular blogging. And yes, the redesign has not been forgotten—simply put on hold for a short while as we have waited for the curtain fabric and for my personal hanger assistant (a.k.a. adoring husband) to finish up the last items. We are LOVING the look and feel of our home.
Thanks for your support and love, and for sharing in my excitement at adding a little more love and chaos to the Sokol home!
Best,
Connie