I'm learning to listen!

I’m learning to listen. This past weekend I pitched a national agent my book—a women’s romance fiction. This was a top agent from one of the best publishers in the nation. I had ten minutes to wow her enough that she would want to see a future query letter, maybe a chapter, and if a miracle occurred, the whole manuscript. Nervous, I tried to be myself and articulate the concept clearly—she responded well and asked me for the full manuscript.  Despite my disbelief, I was elated. The very next day I sat in a writing critique group where the lead person shared comments that basically shredded my first chapter and writing ability. I was depressed. When I shared the events with my personal writing group, they said a request for a full manuscript was fabulous, and to write it and send it in. I was confused.
After this rollercoaster, I am learning to be still and listen for the truth, and what is right for me in my situation. Rather than race to polish my manuscript, or spend my days in a depressed brownie haze, I have rejected both of those extremes. Instead, I have spent time on everyday home things—cleaning, filing, and organizing. Listening to my mind and soul, I have recognize the need to step back and let this experience simmer for a moment. And this hum-of-the-home kind of rhythm is helping me, bit by bit, figure out my next step.
I have a quote by my bed from Rudyard Kipling that says, “Trust yourself when all men doubt you; but make allowance for their doubting too.”
So when making a decision I encourage you to listen—to your soul, your life experience, and the many helpful voices that will surely come. But listen with your heart for the Spirit and the truth that you need to hear for your particular situation. Then go and live it fully.
All my best,
Connie